Personal Apology....

[yoyo]

This apologie goes out to everyone who knew me as Havok....

I realized the other day that i had been not acting as i should have been.

This server has been one of the BY FAR best servers that i have ever played on. I have had some of the best friends and enimies i have ever encountered on this game.

This game is one of the highlights of my week when me and other buddies get together and lan together and go out and kill stuff all night.

This game.....

That is the other thing i for got about was it is just a game.

Me personally i feel i was a jerk.

Games are supposed to be fun. Supossed to be something you can do to escape reality and go into your fantasy dream world to level play and have a good time.

Everywhere you go you will allways see pkers like nom, okies, and me.

now i realized the other day with my ban that i really screwed up. This is not a plea that i am popping i just really needed to say something and i would really appreciate it if the DMs could not erase this , lock it if you would like but this is something i really would like to say to this gaming community.

I dont want to be known as the punk that killed everyone. That allways fought with the DMs. That allways tried to be better than everyone. The night i realized this was the night after me and the DMs got into a big scuffle. there was no other way to say it other than i was an [censored].

It seemed to me though that i was too late with my realization.

My ban became permanent.

So since i was not able to continue here and really attempt to change our immage i decided to Apologize to everyone.

THis is a game. This world that we all indulge our selves into is a wonderfull place to hang out in for hours days weeks on end.

So in conclusion i am sorry for everything i have done to anyone in any way to make there gaming experience un pleasent. I am sorry for ruining some of yours fun....

And mostly i am sorry to the DMs for comming into your house and disrespecting you....

as allways

Havok

[Death Dealer1]

even though the lesson was learned late.....atleast a lesson was learned.

[lordvan52681]

I, personnally, hope that this apology is sincere and that someday Havok can come back and prove that it is. However, I also feel I must show this quote from less than 2 months ago to show why the DMs may be hard pressed to believe it.

To all who knew me and to all who didnt,

I am officially leaving =kSt= for reasons i cant explain. People sit there and talk crap about me over and over. Like how "kromix and sirus are ok" and "havok is the reason people dont like you guys". Well kromix was the one who taught me how to play. Kromix was the one who showed me the disarm tricks and turned me into the pvper i am today. I love never summer so i will stay here but not as the pker you all know. This world has turned into a bunch of people who all they want to do is run around and level. Noone wants to get pked and noone wants to party with kst. The name kst has become obsolete. People see it and it is a automatic sign of hate. So i am leaving. I realized today that you either have to be a follower, or be hated as a leader, someone who stands out, or someone people fear. We have engaged many wars with people and then become dillusional upon the events which follow.

I have killed other guild leaders and i have been slain by them but i never expected to be destroyed by my own leader and friend. Kst was my creation, was my baby, it was something i created. And for anyone to out of the blue say that i was not even anything and to publicly humiliate me like that .....well......its not worth fighting for. I tried to make kst great and i tried to do whatever it took to make kst something people would either fear, or love. But ultimately i guess kst has become nothing but this evil group of people where everyone feels they have to gang up on to destroy...

So to everyone i offended and to everyone who i have slain and made my enimy... i am sorry and i will not be that person again.

[yoyo]

this apology was not meant to push anyone to believe me .......


I am accually being sincere.